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Tuesday, 02 October 2007

  • Kristy, I just read your comment. If you happen to get this Xanga update, I want to know if things have gotten better for you at U of I. By the way, I'm coming down this weekend, but you may already know that.

    So I think the smartest thing I've heard in college so far was Dr. Strome rambling on about not knowing what you don't know and then knowing what you don't know and then finally knowing what you didn't know. Yeah. It was smart. While she was talking about it, I was kinda like "Umm, is this lady nuts?" But then as I was studying for chem and calc examss last week it clicked for me and then I was like, "This lady is a genius. I need to write her an email telling her how brilliant she is." Except I didn't because then she'd think I'm the one who is nuts.

    I love love love English 161. Seriously, if you have English 160 at UIC (haha, because my Xanga is so popular, I know), take 161 with Jennifer Lewis. She knows her stuff. She's even gotten me to watch the news every morning and read the newspaper 4-5 times a week. You don't realize how easy it is to be poor. Like, so many things come into play, it's not one isolated situation. And furthermore, many people think that poor people are lazy, but that often isn't the case. Many poor people are working. Isn't it crazy? How awful to be working your ass off and to still be poor! I just think that some people don't need to be making as much money as they do. I know raising wages at Wal-Mart will increase prices (which I'm personally a fan of), but what about the highest execs. Do they really need to be making as much money as they do? No. What the hell for? How many cars and vacation houses does one person need. If you have the time to spend all of this money, you probably aren't working as hard as you should be to be making so much money. We need a larger middle class. But it's just not something that can be fixed right away because people (for some odd reason) feel entitled to these huge salaries. We have a huge problem on our hands, People! I get really excited about this, sorry.

    I actually understand calculus now. Isn't that fabulous? I'm excited that I'm not going to fail.

    And I did well on my first chem exam which is great! Well I do see my professor every two weeks, my TA during her office hours almost every week, and attend a study group twice a week. So if I failed it, that'd be a problem.

    I'm not going to be done with college in 3-3.5 years. It'd be great but there are so many classes I want to take. I have an entire list. And I want to do the internship too. I haven't decided how I feel about being so busy yet. I kinda like it. As long as I still have time to have fun. I visited Maggie in Madison this weekend. I love [hiding in the bathroom with her] love [watching cnn/eating with her] love [her] and miss her. But we'll be reunited in a few weeks. And I'll see Maggie S. this coming weekend. Awe-some! But I haven't hung out with Brittany and that should change soon. Friday perhaps. I'll call her today or tomorrow.

    I'm in a such a great mood. These women at work must think I'm a fab student because I'm just clicking away at my keyboard, but really I'm just blogging on this obsolete website. Also, I like work, but it's weird to work longer than I attend school. Ruth is funnnnny. She likes boxes and corn chips. She's my fave. No, I like them all.

    I absolutely love new months. I love new weeks, but new months are even better. And this month is the best because I've gotten used to the stress of college, and now I can stop being fat. I probably said that last time, but this time I mean it.

    I should consider making some UIC friends soon. Maybe. But then again I wonder if I have the time or if it's really necessary.

    Love y'all!

Wednesday, 05 September 2007

  • So I made a note to myself that I should update Xanga and I'll feel bad if I begin to neglect it again or cross it off of my list [of things to do] without actually updating. I've actually been writing a lot for English 161 (and in my planner) which is probably why I haven't felt the need to update. Well, here it is, not that anyone really reads my Xanga either way.

    College started. And it's definitely harder than people told me it would be.

    English 161 is teaching me to pay attention to detail and listen to the news. I actually love this class. I feel like I'll learn so much. But I'll be in The Writing Center a lot. And there's a lot of reading!

    MVSC 100 is a joke, but I love this class. If only it counted towards my GPA.

    Chem 112 is a LOT of work! We get so many OWLS and they take forever and ever to do. But so far so good. I'm following along and keeping up. I'm worried about the tests but Prof. Balch said this class is going to take up a lot of our time and I'm willing to put the time in. SLC=My new bff! I'm dreading the labs already.

    Calc. Eww! I like the professor although I'll have to start sitting in the front to see the board. The TA doesn't know how to explain things very well so MLC will be bff #2 (or #1 depending on which class is harder at the time.)

    Oh yeah, and I don't have any friends. Which is a huge change for me. I'm used to having friends. This is weird. UIC really is a cold campus. It's the commuter thing. So I signed up for things today to make friends. Now I actually have to attend these things.

    So this is pretty much my life.. class, work, the gym, homework, shower, sleep, and repeat. Fun, right? Yeah, it's a ball.

    I miss my BFFs. Come back to me!

    Love ya!

Thursday, 09 August 2007

  • So in about nine days many of my friends are going to be gone. That's crazy! I'm kinda ready but not. I don't even know. It'll be okay though, right? Because we'll visit each other and stuff. It has to be alright.
    I went to Michigan last Friday which was awesome. I'm happy that Kristy and I got along well. Saturday I spent with my lover Maggie. It's one of those nights that are hard to explain. Like it could've been really bad but it actually turned out well and we had fun together. Sunday I watched Grey's with Mike. Season Premiere the 27th of September, can't wait! I was with Maggie again on Monday. I really like us. And Taylor made me feel better. And I was with Brit, Tay, and Joe last night. I also went to the zoo yesterday. I felt like such a 5-year old/tourist.
    I feel like this entry doesn't do my week justice.
    We're down to the last few days so let's make it amazing. There's still so many people to see!

Thursday, 02 August 2007

  • Okay, so this maybe seem extremely weird, but I had to force myself to log on and update Xanga. I know I don't have to update, but since I resolved to keep up with it this time around I decided that I would do it when really I'd rather just forget last weekend.

    So Friday...Yeah, never getting that trashed again.

    <1000 calories + 8(I think) shots = an awful idea which results in bruised feet, throwing up, and not remembering the night.

    Although to be honest I don't regret walking to CVS in my heels because I REALLY wanted to wear them. Anyways, I learned my lesson.

    Saturday...So I woke up when my dad walked in. What a nice surprise so early in the morning! Except not. And then I was super hung over for hours but somehow managed to get in the shower and make myself look presentable. Jenny's Grad/Birthday party was cute; I want a chef at all of my parties when I grow up. I don't know how I feel about big, dark parties with lots of random people, but after it was busted we went to Monica's, which I loved. There were so many people that I haven't talked to in a long while. It was awesome to catch up.

    I spent Sunday and Monday with Maggie B, my favorite! We walked like a gazillion miles. We also saw Lindsay Lohan's movie which was the worst. But I didn't even regret seeing it because it was so bad that it was funny, you know? On Monday Maggie and I walked some more. And we had too much sugar, bad idea! And then I kind of got a lot done at my grandma's even though I'm going back to finish cleaning on Saturday. Oh, and on Monday night I was in the worst mood ever, but I love Maggie for getting me out of the house (and Butera) and both Blonde Maggie and Maggie B. for cheering me.

    Work is awful. I'm looking for a new job.

    Wednesday was my Daddy's 43rd Birthday/August 1st. I decided that August 1st is an amazing day to change yourself. I don't like my job or how unproductive/lazy I've been this summer, and it was a good day to start. I mean think about it, it was almost a month from the first day of school and not just any school, but college. Which is kind of a big deal. So Gosia and I went to UIC and we got things done. Have I mentioned that I love my cousin? Because I do. Even though she's from the suburbs and sheltered. Kidding. But it's okay, because according to her, "We have gangs there too."

    We're celebrating Daddy's Birthday tonight!

    So this next week is going to be awfully busy. It includes: insurance stuff, phone stuff, job searching stuff, immunization stuff. I don't know. It's just a lot. I feel like Wisconsin Dells isn't a good idea for me right now. I feel myself becoming overwhelmed again.

    Peace.

Thursday, 26 July 2007

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    Okay, so really I should be sleeping since I definitely woke up late for work today but it's okay because I have some thoughts that need to be put into writing.

    First off, my shopping problem is back and I LOVE it. Like, seriously. What could be better than just wanting to shop 24/7? It's the best. Especially when you find cute $5 shoes. So I wish I lived like the people on the OC so that I could buy new dresses for all of the cocktail parties. I never get to wear dresses. Dang. Also, I wish heels were more common. I feel like they should be because they make our legs look good. But they're uncomfortable I know. I also know that I must sound very materialistic right now. But if you don't like it, get off my Xanga.

    On to my more profound thoughts. So the girls went to dinner on Monday, and it was fun. But I especially enjoyed sitting the Barney and talking to Taylor and Maggie for an hour. I hope that Tay felt better after that conversation, but she also sort made me question my own decisions. Like, I'm not regretting UIC at all. I feel like I made a great choice for myself. But can I cut it as a PT? I don't know. Maybe. Will it keep me happy? Am I stupid for not actually going into psychology? I'm not sure. I don't want to be the person that jumps from major to major. Okay. Psychology; my parents didn't approve. Social work; not enough money. Business; cute outfits, competitive. I feel like I could succeed in business because of how organized I am. But I lack creativity. And I neeeed to be helping people. I guess Movement Science wins for now.

    And another point that Tay made. We have spent 4 years building up our friendships and many of them will dissipate within a week. It's still summer and already I feel like I've lost so many friends. I guess it's hard to stay close to too many people. I love guys because they're easy. You can almost always pick up where you left off. Girls are not as easy. We get pissed if the other one isn't making an effort. Which is understandable. I'm so proud of Brittany and myself and the other sets of best friends who have made it even though they're at different schools. Like I know I spend more time with Maggie and Maggie than I do with Brittany, but Brittany and I have passed the test. Different high schools, different friends, moving away. It's so important to realize that you can stay friends without being together all of the time. Like sometimes it sucks because we don't hang out like we did in 8th grade and the beginning of high school, but we're always there for each other and she'll always remain one of my best friends because of everything we've gone through together. And now two of my other best friends are going to be hours away from me. That's going to be tough. So I guess I was semi-depressed when I started to write this, but actually, it'll be okay. We may not talk 26x a day the way we do now. And of course we won't be hanging out on such a regular basis. But as long as everyone makes an effort, you'll stay friends with those who matter most. Everyone else, well, just Facebook them once in a while I guess.

    I wish my thoughts were more organized. I need to shower. And I need social interaction.

    Was this entry depressing? I'm not depressed. I'm happy. I'm excited about UIC because I'll have Tay, Mike, Gosia, Margs, Rakesh and lots of new potential friends. And I'm staying in Chicago. And I <3 my friends. And I especially <3 my parents because they're like my BFFs. So I'm happy, okay? Just doing a lot of thinking.